Terrorism and Surveillance ((Part 9))

As I slept last night sitting up, over infinity and considerations of my situation, I came to several important conclusions. Let these be the point of this post. Now, I know the following will sound highly un-American, but this is not my intention. I am an ACTUAL PATRIOT, who has come to love the land upon which the US was built, maybe even some of its more fundamental properties. I have been called a constitutionalist and libertarian, many times. And by many people, both left and right. Unfortunately, my plight concerns a complete usurping of the constitution. As such, it MUST be perpetrated by an entity outside of the US Concept. America would never do this to me.

So, whatever has done this to me is not America. Not at all.

Civic Duties and Recompense

Now that I have been targeted, mostly without reason, I have no desire to help America succeed. This is in spite of and addition to some of the things I didn’t like about the place in the first, place. Like much of the Western World, the US has the tendency to turn things like racism, xenophobia, and general hatred on like a faucet. Whenever we need to be divided, we are. Divided.

I won’t go into a lengthy diatribe about Trump or any other politician. I don’t have the energy. And that stuff is REALLY, REALLY boring to me. It matters, yes, but it largely doesn’t make any difference to talk about it. The Right will still make fun of my long hair, The Left my somewhat rightward economic lean. I have attended exactly two protests in my life. The first, an anti-masking rally put on by a bunch of Trumpers. I was just there to see what that side was like. The thing had nothing and everything to do with Trump. And this is OK. Some people vote differently. And that’s OK.

I also attended a No Kings protest. I had a lot of fun at this one. I rode my bike up and down the rally’s road, doing tricks and adding energy to the whole thing. I wore a yellow shirt, which was ultimately stained by Allan. With this, and several other damage-choices, he gave away his idiotic, non-thinking, right-wing nature. Some people just believe. And that’s not OK. I don’t mean God, but at the same time, I do. I’m sure you’ve all seen how the political establishment treats Trump, like Jesus.

Dude, Jesus HAS NEVER BEEN LIKE THAT.

The real reason they praise his efforts is that he represents a marble slab of status-quo, pure and unadulterated. I know that things aren’t sold this way, but just look at who’s winning. And you’ll have all the answers. As they say:

CHASE THE MONEY

Of course, I’ve never been very good at chasing money. I see it as part of life, not the whole of it. And maybe this is why I’ve been targeted.

Maybe not. Either way, I lean both ways. I can see the value in others who are different from me, and this makes me… well-rounded. And a target. It is precisely this targeting that has led me to question my own country, my patriotism. I mean, why would I ever want to invest myself into a place that invests not in me? They have taken away my rights, without due process, perhaps out of boredom. What a fucking shit-show. &*$#*^^*$

I’m sorry to keep cursing at you, dear reader. My intention is NOT to inflame. The purpose is, instead, to provide some insights into how being unfairly treated like a terrorist could lead ANYONE to question their own country. Of course, if I find, somehow, that it’s not the country doing this to me, I will happily take my place among patriots again. I will continue to attend all sorts of protests, if only to see how it all works. I love seeing how things work.

But, right now, things ARE NOT WORKING. The country, regardless of who’s steering the ship, appears to be headed for an iceberg. Once again, I do not wish to blame any politician or political party. That stuff is lame. I DO wish to draw attention to things like

PRICES ARE UP

FREEDOM IS DOWN

HATRED IS COMMON

This is not a good combination of rights and liberties. It’s not the right path.

As such, I don’t really feel inclined to help out. I find myself wishing I had never worked here, ever, and instead. I mean, if working this land has led me to the point of being a target, I might have done better moving to an island at 10-YO. Of course, I am no longer 10. I’m now several magnitudes beyond that. Still, I wish I could have known. I would have just boarded a plane a long time ago-before, when things were much calmer than they are now.

Americans, 2.0

A major part of the problem I am living is in how Americans are. If Allan had better parenting, a better job, etc., he may not have torn up my stuff the same. He may not have invaded my privacy so harshly. He could very well have empathy. The people I meet would be happier, nicer, and more forgiving. Perhaps. At the very least, there wouldn’t be so many people willing to take on the label of perpetrator, or torturer from whence I sit. There might not be any shadow government at all. And maybe laws would matter, for all. Especially those who have done nothing illegal.

Instead, we have Targeted Individuals. Their legitimate concerns labeled as mental health issues. Their woes woefully unanswered by MOST members of the police machine. Quotiently, certain members DO seem cool and HAVE helped me out tremendously, but, overall, their response has been “prove it.” Yeah, as if I can prove myself against a machine so dark, and so utterly deep. It’s the deep state I’m against, and it sucks. I am all but powerless.

But, in spite of this power differential, I have constructed certain ways to combat the issue. I am a smart man, and so will be smart against my enemies. I WILL determine their weaknesses as they have done me, and I WILL prevail. This is not to say that all will not be hell for now. I know it will be, as it is. Still, everything is a math problem, outside of Godel’s limitations. All is at least logic. And that I have in spades.

SPADES OF THAT // DROPS OF JUPITER

By the way, I hate that song. Although I did once hear a man do a rendition without all the pitch correction, and it was good. So, maybe it’s not the song. Maybe, instead, it’s the perfect pitch of a deep government gone full-bore. And, yes, they’ve gone mad. Following MLK around was and still very much is: dumb. Treating feminist organizations as terrorist organizations is: dumb. And, treating those resembling John Lennon like John Lennon is: VERY DUMB.

Dissidents and whistle-blowers?

Does that not include virtually everyone at some point? And if not, then will it not someday?

Tisk tisk and a barrel of shame. Gas should be down, not up. Matter of fact, we should probably stop using gas altogether. We know it’s not that great for the environment. Yet, we still use it, making US bad for the environment, also. I consider the sky, the water, and the animals every time I take a drive. I note how missing the quality-quantity is from it all. What a shame.

Now, I do not wish to have the Koch’s list me further, so I’ll back off this whole gas thing for now. Suffice it to say: This is not the America that was founded. These are not the people of constitution’s thought. We have been led astray.

And, once astray, one must find a way home.

Out of the Maze, How To?

As with anyone, I have heard that merely complaining is a waste of time. It is usually much better to complain and then solve. Often, not everything can be solved. But, it still makes sense to chase what solutions CAN be chased. Can I get myself taken off the list? Probably not. Maybe certainly not, with posts like these. I am not being blasphemous. I am, however, somewhere near it. And, from here, I have so much more to solve.

Upon my back, they have placed so many problems. Then, concurrent to this, they have tasked me with solving things. Anything. Something.

Leadership is a good place to start. The world lacks good leaders right now. Well, yes, they DO exist, but they are provided with no power to lead. Instead, we are led by the blind, and lame. This is never a good recipe, no offense to the blind. Your life is hard enough without my comments, so please allow me to apologize. I’m sorry. Maybe ACTUAL BLIND LEADERS might work better?

Something. Anything. Else.

Leadership is a solution. And so is utilizing the brain power of our intellectuals. I know you’ve discovered “AI” and think that your power has been concreted ad infinitum. But, someday, you won’t know how to work the computer. It won’t fix itself, and all of your stressed out brainiacs will be too disillusioned to raise a single finger to your plight. Instead, you could hire guys like me to do good, surprising things for society. Double instead, you chase me around like a Gin Blossoms track. How stupid.

Is as does. Anyway, I would be naive to assume that progress is any longer the point. This society is built on winning, which is not equivalent to progress. If all were to win, in some way, then yes, it would be. But it ain’t.

Stability, like leadership, is a solution, as well. One sometimes never in fashion. But one nonetheless. Right now is, unfortunately, one of those times. Just look around you at the “news” you’re provided. That stuff says it all. War. Infighting. Right versus Left. Higher prices. Loss of rights. Junk. It’s ALL junk. It means being expected to consume stress and instability like a bag of chips. All day long, you get this bad news and that bad news. Then, you fight. As expected. What if, instead, we made a point to live in such way so as to make the news boring? Imagine that: BORING NEWS.

But this can’t be, not with so many people on Earth. Stress is death. Time is inconvenience. Instability the solution. Well, this need not be the case. We could make a point NOT TO FIGHT. We COULD take Left versus Right as a form of division, and therefore put it to an end. You know, shake some hands. We can always go back to loving thy neighbor. And, no, I don’t mean banging your neighbor’s wife. We shouldn’t be doing any of that. No matter what she looks like, man. While we’re at it, too, we should stop trying to force others to like us. If everyone knew this, we wouldn’t have stalkers. We wouldn’t have people like Allan, making others so miserable. This is all in stability’s making.

In a stable world, we would make better decisions. I know it so. Why? Because a stable world is one where our leaders do not seek to separate us so often. They chase, instead, having us all get along, in spite of the resulting yet minuscule lack of surplus, and profit. We COULD spend A LOT less on fences. I have said precisely this in personal conversations with others: that we’ll know the world is headed in the right direction when the fences start to fall. When signs start to read: TRESPASSING OK — SLEEP HERE WHEN YOU’RE COLD. That’s kind of the vibe I got when I visited Iceland with my mayoral ex-girlfriend. As such, I know this all to be quite possible.

But, we’re only as safe as the distance of flailing arms. If one place falters, so does the world. If not now, then eventually. And with certainty. Just look at how quickly bad ideas spread like a virulent virus, about the Western World. One day this place is racist, then that one. If anything, this should give us a clear sense that what we take as nations is not the entire story, that some dark force perpetuates your misery, division, and stress. Call it the Western World. Call it The Force. Maybe call it lizards. I know, I stand to lose some of you at the lizards.

Some of you, on the other hand, LOVE conspiracy. Some of you hope I’m right about being a Targeted Individual. Some of you, like me, hope it’s just the result of tumultuous mental weather; that which I’m going through, so to say. Still, there would be too much to explain under any of the simpler possibilities. As such, I don’t really believe my life to be a conspiracy right now. Only its wheels. The wheels of “freedom” that whim us away to nothing. As has always been the case, and

All in due time.

OK, so I’m definitely rambling again. Stay focused. Keep the task.

The final solution. Shit. Let’s go with: Last Useful Solution, I can provide is universal application of law. Rule of law is very important. It’s what sets the rules of the game, our expected behaviors and how we conduct ourselves. The game of life. The one we all lead, everyday. Consistent. Legality. And Law. I don’t mean across countries, either, or that one place should tell another what to do. That wouldn’t be freedom. It would be confusing, and stupid. Instead, I mean that when a powerful person commits a crime, they should be treated like a criminal. And, conversely, when an innocent person seeks to exist naturally in a state of eccentricity/individuality, they shouldn’t have to worry about the possibility of becoming a target.

That possibility means not actually having laws. It speculates differences in how the law is applied, who actually has rights. I followed the constitution, what I took for the rules, and look at where that got me. Now, I am homeless. And never left alone. Without basic rules, we have anarchy. And not the good kind. The kind that has on one side a tyrant, the other a sort of David figure. That’s not anarchy or libertarianism. It’s fascistic tyranny in full application. Either way, It’s definitely not America.

At least not the one I grew up in. THIS PLACE is made up too DIFFERENTLY. To even say that I’m FROM HERE is to mean a different COUNTRY altogether, a totally different place upon the same land.

Growing up, things felts a lot more stable, and friendly, and not so leaderless.

Things COULD be better.

Proofing this post through brain fog and poor sleep, I get the feeling that writing a book might have been easier. At least then I wouldn’t have to worry about space. Once again, the point here was/is to outline how being targeted is making me less American. But, seeing as AMERICA has changed so much, maybe this isn’t such a bad thing.

I’d rather be a virtuous patriot of yesterday, than a corrupted hero of today.

Better. Things SHOULD be better.